I used to think with that many followers, you can completely make money through writing...

Behind every smile, there is a tearful story.

Since I full-time worked on reading and taking online classes, I've been spending without earning.

It sounds better to say "investing in" myself, but after working without payments for five months and 15 days, I say what it is, and I also hope pursuing for the passion is not a prologue of self-destructiion.