It took me some time to write a response after finishing your story. Some people are obsessed with how many followers they have on a social platform, and some are obsessed with material satisfaction.
You were obsessed with people at the first sight, so it's really hard to know whether you have recovered from the compulsive obsession because you never know who you will meet at the next corner, on the subway, or in Starbucks.
I just hope one day your husband can move into your brain. No more pedestal, but only the loving eyes and smiley face of the man truly beside you.